My Nana.

Last month, on January 25th, My Nana died.
Nana was a huge part of my life. Nana along with Grandad raised me until I was 14, until I then moved to my Mothers. Even then she was still a soft place to fall when I needed it.
For the last few years of her life she had bad dementia and lost most of her grasp on reality, so I had to grieve for the person she had been...but  I don't think that made it any easier when she did actually leave.
I have a lot of good memories and I have a lot of things I am very grateful for from Nana.
Nana taught me how to read, taught me my manners and what was "ladylike" she taught me how to clean, iron, bake, cook. She taught me so, so very much.
She loved to thrift! I have a huge love of thrifting from her. Nana loved a bargain and a sale at the good stores too.

These photos were from 5 years ago when both my Nana and Grandad were well.

Me, hubby, Grandad and Nana

Nana had a good long life. She had a good long marriage. She was even in the home with Grandad in the same room. No money worries and no serious health issues. Grandad has Alzheimers and is unaware of her passing. Grandad will be at the funeral with two nurses to care for him and my Mum said that we will all make a big fuss of him.

The Funeral is next week. It will be good to say "night night, God bless" to her...which is something she would say at bedtime.

She is being buried in the place she was most happy, in Poynton, Cheshire. It will be along side one of her Great grandchildren with room for Grandad to join her on his passing.

I really do hope there is an afterlife. I hope she is having a good natter with her Mother now and enjoying whatever is next. I hope I will see her again, in my dreams and hopefully in the next life.

I never lost a family member before. This is my first serious loss. It is all new to me. Despite the lack of tragedy surrounding the death, in that she was old and died peacefully, it is still a loss and I am still grieving.

I don't know if I will ever be OK with knowing she is no longer here.

I am hoping I get to see her, one last time to give her a kiss and say, Night, night, God Bless, see you in my dreams, I love you.